What a good girl does when told....

Master just left on His bike with the warning: "Post something today or I will post some pictures."

Since i have not been posting i find my innate "shyness" has returned, and i am somewhat reluctant to see my private bits front and center on His blog. i am sure He will remove that reluctance soon as it is His wish i remain "humble".

i can offer W/we are both well and more committed to 24/7 slavery than ever. For me it has been largely accepting that my Owner is truly dedicated to Ownership, both sexually and psychologically. Also, a huge break thru came when i was finally able to accept i was not going to be released, replaced or "disowned". Unfortunately for Him, this acceptance came on the heels of some rather serious testing. MJ stood the challenge, with mostly good grace and always faithfulness to His beliefs and personal values. Slavery here means "His Way". So simple. It makes life rather simple when i accept and live with that same value always foremost in my mind.

It was a lot of letting go of my personal fantasies and expectations of what slavery would look like for U/us and feel like for me. i can say i do feel totally Owned and well Used. Both were very important to me. i do not have the sense of Control i might hope for, but He obviously feels what exists is sufficient for His needs and desire to maintain. i do understand being "Master" is a full time job and can be very emotionally and physically demanding.

With security and more casual time together i find my demands are less frequent. i often find myself pleasantly suprised with what develops...or not...but always live with the understanding that what "IS" is as He wishes or i would be redirected, corrected or punished. It has been quite sometime since i have earned a real punishment. My beatings are all for my Master's pleasure and i find my own joy in knowing i am being used as He wishes.


He continues to take His pleasure as He sees fit and make good use of all of His slave's holes. Using my ass gives Him great pleasure. i find i am more able to take His huge cock with the knowledge it pleases Him to use me so. It allows my mind to order my body to open for Him. He has learned lube is good and doesn't reduce His pleasure. i find it extremely exciting when He chooses to bind, beat and use me anally. i find my mind imagining how it must look to Him to see His shaft stretching His slave's asshole open and disappearing deep into her body until it is buried. He has a way of demanding i acknowledge my consent to this treatment and while i find it very humbling, i also know i speak the truth when i respond: "yes, Master, i do want your cock deep in my ass. Thank You for using me and allowing me to please You."



So much time is spent in domestic duties and work outside the home i find it challenging to blog as much as i used to because i originally used the blog as a method of communicating with MJ as well as sorting out many issues which challenged me. My challenges are fewer and more internal, or seemingly not universal, so i avoid writing.....plus this slave has discovered Ebay...ouch.

Thanks for sharing our journey.

What's Up with MJ & His slave....

i have been charged with posting a new entry which is truly coming soon.

Master was very busy with the camera last weekend so He wishes to share His usage and wishes His slave to share her experience, physical and emotional, to add to the record of O/our journey into Total Power Exchange.

Life rolls on and there is never enough time to do all W/we wish to do!

i'll get a new post up later in the week, Master!!!

i promise!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

LOVE the EARTH

Be kind to your "Mother" today....she's the only one we have.

Instruction from Master

What are you?

i am a slave, Master.

Whose slave are you?

i am Your slave, Master.

Why are you a slave?

Because You took me as Yours, Master.




What is your duty, slave?

To please You, Master.


How do you please your Master?

By obeying, Master.


I see. What does that mean to you, slave?

You own me, Master. i do as You desire.


Do you have rules, slave?

To please my Master always and be always ready to serve Him.


How do you serve, slave?

As i am told, Master.


What is required to please your Master?

To take Cock with joy and gratitude, Master.


Where do you take my cock, slave?

Where ever You please, Master.


Do you take cock in your cunt, slave?

Yes, Master, when it pleases You.


Do you take cock in your mouth, slave?

When i am allowed the privilege, Master.


And do you take cock in your ass, slave?

When my Master desires to use my ass, it is my honor to take His cock in my ass.


Whose ass, slave?

Your ass, Master.


And whose cunt, slave?

Your cunt, my Master.


Do you like it when i fuck your mouth, slave?

Yes, Master. Very much.


And what do you do with my cum, slave?

i drink it down with gratitude, Master.


And when you let it spill, then what must i do?

You must punish me for wasting Your precious juice, Master.


How are you punished, slave?

Anyway my Master desires to punish me.



Do you like to be beaten, slave?

Yes, Master, if it pleases You.


Do you like to be bound, slave?

Yes, Master.


Why do you like to be beaten and bound, slave?

To serve my Master and focus on Him.



How do you focus on Me, slave?

With body, mind and spirit, Master.


What does that mean, slave?

My body is Yours to use as You please. My mind is for You to teach Your will, Master. My spirit to soar from the joy of serving You and the freedom when i am used, Master.


I see. Do you deserve the privilege of serving me, slave?

i try very hard to be worthy of that privilege, Master.


And when you are not?

i trust You to discipline me and train me to be pleasing to You, Master.


So are you worthy of taking my cock now, slave?

YES, Master, please!!

Come here, slave. Kneel.

humane restraints..and not so much...

Thank you to all who left such kind generous comments!

This slave is currently limited to 60 (or less!) minutes of net time for writing or related surfing. Yesterday's found me on two interesting web sites...to "me"...i could have spent my whole time on HANDCUFF WAREHOUSE



i won't bore you with the details of how i found myself there...and i must say it would follow such a site would exist...the cop, mental patient, and prison movies alone would require it! What an interesting way to spend way too much time!

The other site is a Domestic Disciple site with which many may already be familiar. This one is a bit of a historical perspective and shows there truly isn't much new under the sun! This is a program written by Dorthy Spencer in 1936. It thoroughly appeals to my quest for structure, order, accountability, control and discipline. Mrs Spencer believes DD is a two way street and the wife should whip her husband also. hhuummm...wonder how that will go over in MJ's domain??

The site is THE SPENCER PLAN

i printed this one out and read it in bed...possibly stretching the limit already..but it didn't interfere with MJ taking what is His to use for His pleasure, relaxation and stress reduction. i felt better all around!

Spring is truly around the corner when a slave's fancy turns to extreme restraint and ritualistic discipline!

Happy surfing!

update from MJ's slave...

This slave is learning much about her nature and that of Master. W/we are in a very challenging period, for each of U/us personally, as well as within the M/s part of O/our dynamic.

i have learned how much i need to feel owned, controlled and used. i find myself adrift with Master's time and energy very much elsewhere. Guilt follows, with intense introspection and self-examination....the complete opposite of what i believe consensual slavery to be.

The slave questions slavery as a concept as well as a way of life. She realizes, in fact, it is possible to be a slave with no Master. This i have always doubted..at least for me. i discover i am a slave to myself and my own inner desires and compulsions and needs.

What was between U/us is still there...friendship, respect, love, devotion, shared values and ideals. All of these make it impossible to consider a life without the other central in O/our existence. It also has meant W/we both have found it necessary to let go of some of O/our individual expectations and experience the acceptance W/we have both always espoused. For me, at least, i have found my sense of unconditional love challenged...but as ever, MJ leads by example. When i have behaved the worst and felt the most unworthy of His love and acceptance He has managed to find a space within Himself to continue to love and accept me, as i am.

He does this without ever altering who He is...to my complete frustration on many occasions. i can truthfully say i have never known anyone who manages to remain so faithfully true to themselves and their personal vision of behavior and commitment to goals.

i try to allow His example to guide my actions and find i fall short often. i am what i am....human, woman, mother, slave, daughter, sister, friend and companion. my vision of what slavery could/should be continues to form my thoughts and often even my actions. i serve. i wait. i submit my will to His...usually.

i have never been one to acknowledge loneliness. i still do not know if i am able to accept the emptiness i feel frequently as loneliness. If it is, it is due to a self imposed exile. i am not without options and opportunities for distraction. Sometimes i take them and sometimes i do not. i find i am extremely challenged to be self directing. When left to my own devices i most comfortably wait...wait for Master to return to me, both physically and emotionally.

i have worked very hard. My business is not immune to these most challenging times. We attempt to do more with less. i have traveled and shared many happy times with family. For these opportunities i am very grateful. i try not to diminish the joy i find in the experiences simply due to the fact they were solitary and self-directed endeavors. i take faith if my actions or behavior drifted too far from Master's desires He would offer direction. i find the lack of clear, regular direction, perhaps, the most lonely and difficult part of O/our present condition.

i feel suspended, if not frozen, waiting for spring and His return to His home and slave. i try to busy myself with dreams and plans of how W/we will develop the garden and return to the road. i try very hard NOT to think about the return of His sexual mastery of His slave as it agitates my mind, body and soul. i miss His mark and cherish the times He has used His property. i understand it is a function of His complete physical and mental exhaustion that has taken Him away from what He loves. i am sure He, also, is limiting His thoughts of pleasures, past and future.

my self-imposed exile has limited my time reading all my favorite blogs. i am sure this has been a secondary cause of my sense of isolation. i was unaware of how much comfort i took in knowing others were attempting to live lives of honesty within a D/s dynamic. i have always tried hard to avoid a sense of terminal uniqueness. The blogging world opened my eyes to just how similar W/we are to so many others. i grew from the shared experiences so many gave in their writing. i look forward to returning to that world in a few more weeks. If it doesn't happen, i wish you all well and hope your personal journeys of discovery bring you peace and fulfillment. It truly takes courage and strength to live a life aligning your inner self with the daily world. Discovering my own true slave nature has helped me continue to pursue that ideal.

~MJ's slave